My Pain

You see me happy on the outside
At school and at home,
But really I'm crying on the inside
I feel so alone.

People start to worry
About the things in my head.
While others really hate me,
And wish I was dead.

Everyday I face,
Is another day of depression.
Especially at school
I really Don't wait their attention.

This attention I am getting
Is becoming too much.
The name calling and laughter
Other things and such.

Please leave me alone,
It's nothing to do with you.
You call me names, laugh and point,
That's all you need to know.

You say I'm Emo
And that I slit my wrists
With all these picture drawn on my wrist
All draw with nice little twists.

Why can't I just be myself?
Not worry what others say aloud.
I listen to my on music
I don't follow the crowd.

Leave me alone,
Let me be.
I could not care less,
What others can see.

This pain is pushing me
To cut in every direction.
To hope that the bleed
Lets out the depression.

These words I write down,
From pen to paper,
Express my own feelings
Deeper and deeper.

By Kirsty McCulley