Said & Done

I know life is precious
But I never expected it to be as hard as this
With the people I know and love dying so young
When their lives had barely begun

It should make me my life respect
Because I never know what to expect
But I find it hard to about my life care
When all I feel is despair

First there was my Nan, she was 67
My first real experience of someone going to heaven
Then there was Jean who was 60
Still very young to the pearly gates see
Steven, my Knight was next at just 17
I can only imagine what kind of man you would have been
And the things we might have done and seen
Claire was taken at 33
Before she got the chance to, the world see
And now Brian at 27
The same age as me but already taken to heaven

I know my experiences should teach me
To not let my life pass by me
But I’m too overcome by hurt
When I think of how short these lives have been cut
Too preoccupied by how bitter life is tasting
To realise how much of it I’m currently wasting

If I could look down on myself, I’d see I was doing wrong
But I’m too involved and all my rational reasoning is gone
I know I need to live my life for me and let its course run
But that doesn’t take away from the fact that things are always easier said than done

© Toni Higgs 12/04/10