Facing the Truth

I don't want to face
This truth I've inflicted
Tear away the lies
With which I persisted
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Tears in my eyes
As I read these words
Sanity flies away
Like so many birds
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Brings it home
Makes it real
Tears me inside
Makes me feel
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I don't want to know
Blocked it out
Shoved it in a corner
Muffled its shout
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Words on a page
Written in ink
Betray what I've done
As it drips into the sink
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I'm so afraid
Need for more
Help me cope
With skin thats sore
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Should I read on
Read this horror of myself
Or shove it up high
On some lonely shelf
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Dare I carry on
Continue to read
When I know the result
Might make me bleed
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Scared and confused
Locked in a fight
This dark of my soul
Fighting the light
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The book lies there
Just on the table
I'll carry on
When I think I'm stable