Love(Hate)

i love the sweet sound of your footsteps, walking away slowly.
i love the way you lose your breath, to you it's just triggering the closing of your eyes.
which won't clear the memory out of your mind.
i love the way you slip away. the way i can see right through the anger and pain.
the way you bleed out on the floor, remaining love is there once more.
i hate the way you catch my breath, the ways my eyes blur so it's only you i can see.
i get trapped in your eyes, so i believe your lies, but you just took advantage of me being completely blind.
i love the way you cry, and the way every second you live, is just another to die.
i hate the way you love me, the way you really care.
i love the way you take my soul, the reason my heart is there.
you can have the power, to use my heart to tear.
but if you do so, i can make it fair.
i will do exactly as you want me to do.
i love the way you suffocate, the you want to see your fate.
i love your glistening eyes, but inside is what i hate.
i hate you because i love you.
hate the way i am.
i don't deserve you,there's nothing left to do but this.
i love the way the blade suddenly becomes soft.
now there won't be cuts left.
no evidence, no anything.
but all my pain is still kept.
i sink down slow, only water surrounding me.
the blood flow releases and only red i can see.
for now it is all those memories, my existence, is something you will never know.
the drowning is just a show, put on just for you.
but then again, you feel so bad.
guilt of suicide just as i do.
you act so quick, you grab my wrist.
in this story there is a twist.
you save me from the danger..
for in love forever they will fall, these complete strangers.