lovers suicide

standing there.
with my mind racing.
and my heart Pacing.
just standing there
still thinkin bout u.
i hate that u left my life.
but i am glad.
all the bullshit u gave me got old.
all the lies u told made me cry.
standin in the rain.
cryin for the loss of you.
kneelin ova ur cold lifeless body.
soft tears hittin ur white cheek.
why did u have to do it.
u could have told me.
i would of helped.
but instead u took the extreme choice.
i look at the empty bottles.
and the pill packets.
u downed them all.
ur razor next to me.
i hate u.
but i love u.
u left me in the cold.
about everything that was in ur life.
i look at ur arms that used to keep me warm.
and the lips that used to drive me crazy.
i look at ur arms again.
and see where u carved my name.
i see folded piece of paper with 8 words.
'i love u i did this for you baby'
why i screamed though i knew nobody would. hear me.
i downed a bottle.
and some pills.
and fell into an enternal sleep in ur arms.