Her

I want to scream
I need to scream so loudly the stars will shake
I have to make a commotion so you will notice 
So you will notice Im for you
I let people in for you
I don't tell you that I live for you
Because you live for her
And I'm not dead 
but I wish i was dead to you
I wish you were dead  
Because at least I could go on living 
But I live for you
and I wished...but
I can't wish upon a fucking shooting star
because it makes a difference who I am
because when I wish on a star
dreams get crushed because you wished too
I wish you, you wished for who?
Now I don't wish, I watch, thinking, waiting for you
i will wait forever and ever
But I only dream, for i am mute with love
and we may never be together
because I live in fear of what we could be
without her