The Fortress By The Cemetry

The memories, I block them all out
I cant think about them, about you
I’m a walking corpse
I don’t register anything and I don’t care about anything
Happiness doesn’t really happen anymore, its all just a big show
No one can get past my façade
No one even tries, its easier this way
Like a fortress
An impenetrable one at that
Lie the remains of my soul and my heart
I left them there
To keep them safe
To keep me safe
Protection
And I wont let anyone in
And I wont even go in
That fortress, no one can go in, not even me
On the outside of that fortress
I lay weeping next to the tombstones
Of everything and everyone I ever cared about
The gargoyles stare down at me
They look down on me while I wallow in my misery
And its perfect this way
Just me, the dead, and the gargoyles
I don’t need anything else
I don’t need to feel whole
Empty is what I’m feeling and its all I need to feel
I wont search anymore
For that spark of happiness
I don’t need it
I have that whole in my chest and its all I need
And still I weep
At the door of my impenetrable fortress