long gone

i lay and wonder
why you ever lied
and why i ever loved you
my heart now shattered glass
your haunting words from the past
i want you he said
that was all i lied
i nearly died that day
when i realized i was replaced
a huge slap
i didnt want to face
these scars you left inside of me
why couldnt you just want me
i gave you my all
and yet you shoved me down
upon this ground i call home
full of tears and pain
of memory i want to forget
why wont you let me forget
even when i close my eyes
i see you smiling
but then i frown
because you too are long gone
with the whole heart that should be mine