Dark Fear.

unloved pain its just to sad
i cant take it anymore
this pain in my heart
is anything but real
i dont know what it is
i dont know where it came from
or why it chose me
im possesd with pain and fear
the night i turned off the light
was the say i became dark.

you look into my eyes
and all you see is flames
furry and anger !
way deep in my dark soul it's all just fear
underneath this bright smile
is the fear of a half hearted child
the day you hit me with those words
made me think ...why me ?
that wasthe day...
the day i became dark
you think im fearless and hard to scare
but when your not there
i come to reality ...
that there is pain in this world
i feel as if im fighting a battle
from my heart to my sould
in SO confused
and dont know what to chose
my thoughs are scary
crazy,and weird to
but what i think is the truth
1 thing i can do !
my friends dont understand
and my dad is one carless man
he may love me i dont know
but we never talk so how could i?
my brothers are violent and crul,
if they could they would hurt me
but the one thing good in my life is school
not for the learning, or the teachers
but for the people there
every day i cry they already know why
they understand without knowing
but i hate those people
who dont understand why i cry every night
or why i never talk ...
all i ever do is listen....