If only

Sinking in without a friend
If only i knew what i was getting myself into
He didnt love me
He never did
The clashes we had were always him
I feel scared to be alone
If only i knew what i was getting myself into
Breathing life in my hands
I created a little man
Love is what i discribe my feelings towards him
Bothering me about no one by my side
If only i knew what i was getting myself into
Happy smiles hides the tears
Heart's breaking because of my fear
Mom and Dad you throw nothing but sharp spears
I know i messed up
And Whats done is done
Single me with only one love
If only i knew what i was getting myself into
He smiles at me
He laughs when i tickle him
He cries when i tell him "i'll be back''
My little man
My love
Hoping
Praying
Im not alone for long
If only knew what i was getting myself into...