Still Hurting

You'd think I'd be over this by now
You'd think it wouldn't hurt this much
My body's moving somehow
I still wish I had a numb touch
I don't want to feel
Take this pain away
I was happy
Up until I saw your picture today
Then tears started to blur my eyes
And I had to look away
Before I started to cry again for you today
It's been almost a year
But the pain still hasn't gone away
It's still as I fear
You're still gone away
I wish you weren't dead
I wish you were still here
I wish I knew what to do
I wish we still had you
It's harder to get over someone when they're dead
And ignore the evil voices inside your head
So I do something I hate by putting a fake smile on
Because I don't always want everyone to see
That I'm still hurting