anticipating

The feelings we feel
the days we cry
the dry spells
and those urges
how do we cure this?
is there any way
the boy we spend hours thinking about
seeing him like someone
and wanting him so much it hurts
then seeing him struggle his way through another relationship
and not being able to be there for him, because he wouldn't let you
seeing someone you care that much for
and not being able to touch them in the way they want to touch someone else
wanting
waiting
trying
and...
anticipating