Cries at night

At night when I think of the things you say to me just tares me apart inside I don't even know who you are anymore or maybe I didn't know you in the first place I wish I didn't know you cause if I didn't I would have so much happiness you always tr to crush my dreams and nothings ever good enough if i'm the one you despite the most then just tell me so I can leave cause if II never see your face again or hear your voice it's all fine by me I refuse to let you have your way it stops here im tired of tears because i've had enough just let me do my own thing without you in the picture I highly doubt i'll drop a tear at night ever again if yu left my life