Jacob Lamarr

It seems like yesterday
When you spilled water all over our sketchbook
I remember how we used to laugh and play
You lit up everyone's life like no one else could.

You were so brilliant
You were extraordinary
You did what others can't
You made everyone else happy.

You were just 18.
I'd known you for 5 years.
Way too soon, you were taken from me.
Now what's left is just an endless stream of tears.

You were one of the best
You always offered a gentle smile
You were so different from the rest
I can't help but to be in denial.

You weren't supposed to go
Not this early
You never got to know
How your being affected me.

You changed my life
You helped me through
You helped me win every fight
But you never even knew.

I found the sketchbook last night
The one I mentioned before
I couldn't stop it, I broke down and cried
I flipped through it and the memories started to swirl.

I can't stop thinking
About you lying there for days
You were gone while I was living
They found you way too late.

You were alone
I can't imagine how scared you were
I wish Heaven had a phone
I'd let you know that I love you, that's for sure.

I can't say goodbye
It's just too damn hard right now
I don't know why
I still believe there's a way to bring you back somehow.

I can't wait to see you again
Until that day, you'll be in my heart
Jacob, without you, nothing will ever be the same
I knew you were an angel from the start.