Mary, herself & the world

Why this is happening 2 me?
Did I do an unpleasant thing?
I didn't have a drink
Or even was on a bad link
Is from me
God is mad?
I know, till now I can't be
The right & perfect person
I'm just searching for the sun
& when I find it
With my rope I'll rise it
High
In the sky
My best I try
From my deep heart
I want to say 2 the bad part
Bye bye
But…….
Now what?!!
It's all about that
The world outside
It's a kind of fight
& u can't even hide
Or like a question of choose
If u picked wrong you'll lose
Its 2 complicated
So I need to press on pause
Or stop
Wake up girl..
It's just a hope!!
Talking about this has no end
But now I need a lot of hints
I don’t know
What to do
In this life
I can't quit
And don’t know how to fit
Oh shit!!!!
But it's okay
I'll try 2 find my way
I will find the gate
But I wish it won't be too late
I trust in god
God will never let me down
I think wiz my positive side
Absolutely as u guide
Now I'm ready to begin
& start this again
But totally without a pain
Mary
08/09/2010