Perfect Life That Is Coming Undone

There is something inside of me, trying to get out.
I cry out for help but no one hears, no matter how loud I shout.
Is there something wrong?
You may not know it, but I'm really not that strong.
I always smile and pretend like everything's fine.
But truth be told, everything's wrong and nothing's right.
I'm the type of girl that everyone wants to be.
Well I wish I was anyone but me.
With my curly blonde hair and shiny green eyes.
I smile but that's my disguise.
I am hurting on the inside.
I don't run away from my fears, I hide.
My friends don't know, and they never will.
Because this secret I shall never spill.
It's devouring me from the inside out.
I am breaking while I'm skipping about.
I bite my lip and try to not to scream.
As I laugh with my friends, I'm coming undone seam by seam.
I look in the mirror and start to cry.
I don't see my reflection and I wonder why.
Because everything they think I am.
They may not believe it, but it's all a scam.
I have everything I want and everything I need.
But what they don't know won't hurt them. It's not what it seems.
I have the perfect life, yes it's true.
But you don't know what I'd give to be you