Love Is For Losers

Holding a knife against the skin, tracing a line, drawing it thin, it stings for a while, then slowly bleeds, it leaves a scar, just let it be. Do it again, and again. Feel the release. A sweet bliss. Go into that dark place... fade into it... emptiness...let it take control of you. Let your tears fall. Let your emotions go. All these disturbances, lie just behind my wall..
I've never loved anyone. And this is why. I hate this pain. I hate to cry. I'm stronger then this. Don't ask me why. I told you from the beginning what I believed. Your the one who lied to me.
Now you expect me to just do what you want to do. Baby I love you. But I can't do that. Not to you. I can't loose you though. That pain would be worse. I need you. I love you. But if you really loved me. You'd wait until I'm ready...