Willing

Finally I am willing to love you
But now the big question is..
Are you willing to love me?
After all we've been through
And all that we've seen
I would not expect
An answer that would make me happy
Because in the years
I've known you
There has been a spark
And it seem like so long ago
That you told me you loved me
And what did I say in reaction to that
I told you that you couldn't feel love
At such a young age
And now here I am
With you dancing round my head
The aching in my heart
Almost too much to bear
To be honest, deep down, I've always known
That we belong, side by side
But it seems like whenever we get close
My heart shuts down
Steel walls go up
And I'm drifting once again
But this time, when I drifted
You did not reach out
You did not save me
You made no attempt
So in the past months I drifted from you
And now it seems like I'll never get back
I try to focus on you and only you
But there are other distractions in my mind
It feels like im floating in the denseness of space
With no life rope or bouy to keep me safe

So now are you willing
To take a chance?
To fall again?
I'll be here this time, we'll fall together

Are you willing
To look in my eyes?
To chase this dream?
I'll be beside you, running in time
In time to the beat
Of our syncronized hearts