i want to love

i want to love
the lord with all of my heart

but i feel a disgrace
because of the feeling inside.

i have been struck by a love
that will forever be in my heart

til the day i day
or forever more.

but its not toward the lord
whom i have this feeling

its for a silly boy.
that has my head reeling.

i should forget.
about that kid.

for i know
it could never be again.

but i can't help but think.

and it makes me upset
because the lord deserves more.

but i am wrong.
with this feeling so strong.

i will ask for forgiveness
and the strength to forget him.

but what i am scared of is.
maybe he won't forgive my constant sin.