missing the biological link

I've always wondered if my biological father cries
I wonder if his heart aches and writhes in pain
knowing he stepped away from a gift of life
or knowing his son is a gift of destruction

I've always wondered if my biological father cries
when he doesn't know I'm hurt or bleeding
when I lose all hope and control
if I died today would he know or care

I've always wondered if my biological father cries
if he never told his other children that I exist
that I could be the artificial destructive link
If I could be threat to their future

I've always wondered if my biological father cries
when he never cared and left before I was born
when I leave and let him know what his mistake was

I've always wondered if my biological father cries
when he knows when I grow up and pursue and promise revenge
I've always wondered if he cries when I make him wish he never created me