not sorry anymore

we always were so wrong
for each other as you see
you acted like you loved me
how blind could i be?

i saw that i was wrong
and everyone else was right
you really never cared
i cried at the sight.

there is something that confuses me though
if you never cared
then why did you stop texting?
and answering?

the silence made me die inside
made me feel unloved
unwanted
but also it made me feel free

i was no longer attached
i had a reason to write now
and boy if you only knew
how many broken hearted poems ive written about you!

too many to count
not like you'll ever see
unless you want to
cuz ill surely show you

you should know
the way you hurt me
the way you made me feel
and i didnt do anything

i simply fell in love
and you had to lead me on
and tell me you loved me too
when really you were just annoyed

i shoulda listened to her when she told me
but i was lost in your eyes
your devilish enthralling eyes
so many secrets were shared...

so many words
so many feelings
so many sorry's were given
im done saying sorry.

not that my mind doesnt dare think about you
of course i do from time to time
but why does it matter what i think?
you never cared anyways

and today
in class
i caught your eye
and i dared to break the gaze

then i realized..
you were still staring at me.