Abhorrent viscera

Down the streets of seclusion
Echos of silence in my mind.
Smiling, its a personal dilusion
Buzzing of the end is sleepless.
Laughter of sanity is drowned out.
Circling birds are restless
And pain is all about.

I looked about and saw it
A vision of termination.
I intend to listen as i sit
To the voice of determination.
Growing louder over music
Laughter in my mind.
Voices of a lunatic
The words, I fear, are kind.

Swallowed by the vastness
Nothing yet to be felt.
A hollow typ of numbness
As my playing cards are delt.

My situation is not valid
I open my eyes wide.
And give myself to the dark
As i fall beneith the tide.