The Deep Truth

so much pain
its all the same
so much hate
i think its to late
will i ever be satisfied
or will i think about all whose lied
what more can i say or do
all these thoughts i wish you knew
i wonder if i will ever get out
i still cant even scream and shout
i try to wish it all away
but even when im happy, the pain has to stay
i can never tell what feelist is stronger
i seriously cant take it any longer
im not who i want to be
i close my eyes cuz i dont wanna see
all these people tell me to stay
its going to be alright they say
i cant explain what i want
i feel like im just someone to taunt
fuck this life
i need a knife
i miss my blade
the kind of thing that never betrayed
the blood that i bleed
makes me feel relieved
like im that much closer to dead
have you listened to a word i've said
i wish i could just escape tonight
im seriously tired of this fight
just let me go im already gone inside
and deep down im trying to hide