Lost in Lies

I didn't consider
My life after it was over
I laughed at the small little fiddler
As he played endlessly.

I didn't know
I was lying to myself for a lifetime
Now my body lays under a blanket of snow
This was my Christmas gift.

I now know what's to come
I try to repay the debts I owe
To gain pity from some
But my efforts are in vain.

I never knew true fear
Until I died and came here
The endless screams of tortured souls
Are all I hear.

Now that I have died
I wish I had done better in my mortal life
Satan is all I confide
I sold my immortal soul to him.

Now I rise again
Stronger then I once was
A demon of human begin
I know what I must do.

I'm lost in my own lies.