Tears Of Blood

I don't cry tears of salty water
I cry tears of blood

I don't scream piercing sounds of terror
I scream silent sounds of fear

I don't think of hopes and dreams
I think of pain and hurt

I don't plea for control and happiness
I plea for help and love

I don't question of other's greatness
I question of answers not given

I don't laugh as freely as most
I laugh as often as I cry

I don't wonder of fame and fortune
I wonder of what's missing

I don't know about things important
I know about things I must

I don't fear of other's dark thoughts
I fear of my own dark thoughts

I don't love as much or as easily as I did
But I love as there are some to love