shame

i feel so low
i feel so down
i feel so wrong
i hear no sound

i hate what i did
i wish i didnt do it
i hate what i said
why did i go through it

i feel so guilty
so wrong not right
i want to cry right now
i feel the fright

you cared for me
loved me
held me
controlled me
for my safety

and i lied to you
i cheated you
i shamed you all
i made you crawl

you forgave my wrongs
but i repeated them all
i hate myself
becuase i let it fall

all i can do now
is feel rotten like this
and im hoping for something
that will bring back the bliss

please change me dear God
please take this out of my soul
i want to feel right again
i want to feel whole.