This is me, letting go

I never listened to you?
HA
Ha
ha
You make me laugh
You make me sick
God damn I miss you more than anything
You're like a a damn cigarette, addictive as hell.
Just so you know, I'm crying right now
I'm crying my fucking eyes out
My chest is burning
I hope I explode
HA!
You said I made people explode from my cuteness!
You were the perfect liar, but not perfect.
You were perfectly imperfect.
Now here I am typing away on a computer about you.
Will you even bother to read the shit I write about you?
Will you even bother to care anymore?
Don't a-fucking-pologize.
You've said it so many times that
I just want to cram your words back down your throat
with my tongue of course. That'd be the only proper way.

I didn't want you?
Is that what you said?
Are you retarded or some shit?
You're the only thing I wanted.
You're the only thing I could never get a grip on
Now I'm letting go of something I never had.
Wait
Is that even possible?
Shit I don't care.

I hurt you?
Oh baby, You got it twisted.
You hurt me and the hurt you put on me hurt you.
Self inflicted onto yourself.
Don't cry
You told me not to
You're awful
I love you

This is me letting go
I'm listening to you
are you happy now?