my small body

my small body
is bending under the wight of this burden
this shell which once hid away the pain
has become a shield protecting me form the outside world
i am isolated
a loner
and you will never know why
and i won't tell you
because you won't understand
you'll just say i need more therapy
but that's not it
you just don't get it your making things worse
i want to go away
somewhere you'll never find me
and just start over
a new life where i can be the person i always wanted to be
without you there to hold me back i can be free
i'll dye my hair the color i want
and i'll be the independent girl i've never had the courage to be
but soon i'll be free
and you won't be able to hold me back
but don't worry i'll come to visit
i'll be alright
and you'll be ok
when i'm gone you won't have to worry
you raised me the best you could
but now it's my turn to enter the world
and see how much you really did teach me
it's time to be me
so i'm dropping this burden and moving on