What's The Use in Trying?

Once upon a time all I did was take what wasn't mine, if it wasn't nailed down it belonged to me, fuck the previous owner, be it a relative or not. Til one day I met this bitch named Karma, and by that time, I wanted things in my life that amounted to something,tha t meant the world to me. But karma says to me don't act so surprized when he walks off with what u worked so hard for because you did it to those who love you the most. While I sat there crying, I thought to myself,"yeah, I did alot of awful things to those I love and it all came back sevenfold,I promised myself that I would never steal from those loved ones ever again! But, lo and behold, the past never stays buried for long, because all things wrong caused a finger to be pointed at me and no matter how much I changed, I still wanted ti dissappear. So never make those mistakes cos they will follow you forever and ever. My best option instead of being used like i let my family use me is to distance myself from them forever! It's November in Milwaukee and ima take my sons,just @ of them 16 and 7 and off we go cuz im tired of trying to be a good person and nothing positive prevails from my life> Just wait til some one needs me to babysit or find some other things for them or just needs a verbal punching bag. Do you know what it feels like to se love and never really feel it? I DO.............