Still I Wish You Knew

I still remember the days when you were right there by my side
And in those days, I knew that I always had a place to hide
I knew you loved me, but you didn't know I loved you
I was so cold, but there you were always standing through

I can still recall your smile and the way your eyes would sparkle when you laughed
And the days I spent watching you watching me
And I'll never forget the day you said you loved my name
And the way you said it standing out in the rain

Words can not express my love for you
And the fact that you never knew
That you only thought I was playing you
Rips a hole inside me everyday
But I never knew how to tell you I felt that way

For the day I decided too; you drifted away
And ran from me
Like the way you should have done when you first saw me
Because I never was very good to you
I never treated you right and finally you saw right through
Never knowing that I loved you

I know you tried so hard to get to me; to save me
But I've never been the one meant for you
And I'll never get to see you storming up that tower
Or climbing up my hair
For I'm not your Rapunzel and you're not my prince
Though I loved you so, true love was not ours to take
But despite it all I still think of you everyday

If I could take it all back and start again
I'd return to you much wiser and maybe then you'd at least call me friend
But I can't do that and you've longed since closed the door on me; wisely

I wish I could still fix it, but I can't; you've shown me that
And I wish that you still cared, but you don't
For the windows are shut and doors are barred
You won't let me in anymore

With you my regrets are many
But not a one is you
For I'll always love you
Even though I'll never get to call you mine
And I hope someday you'll find the happiness we never got to share
And I wish upon you no sadness, not even a bit of despair

Maybe one day I'll see you again across a crowded room
And I'll look at you and smile; thinking of all the things that we went through
Then I'll see you with some other girl; probably your bride
And I'll think to myself that could have been me; you and me
But it wasn't for the best; we were never meant be

If I could take it back; if I could do things right
I'd tell you 'I love you' from the start and watch you run in fright
For it's better for you to know of my love than to ever think I hated you
I never did; I wish you knew

Though you hate me now; though you took your revenge upon me
I just want you to know, I never stopped; I never could
I never lied; I never faked it

And I wish you could see directly inside of me
For then you would know that I loved you all along; right from the start
And that I would take it back; every blow upon your heart

But it's best I stop now; that I let you go
Because since you've walked away; I've got no more to say
Except I love you, but it wasn't enough
Maybe it never was, still, I wish you knew