My Last Word

Why am I writing this?
You aren’t going to read this,
So why bother?
Let me ask you: why did you bother with me?

You knew how I felt,
And I fell for some of your tricks,
I fell hard for you,
And all you did was brush me aside,
She’s just another stupid girl,
I’m sure you thought that,

But at least I won’t be one in the long line,
You’ll have here,
At least I didn’t give in,
Not like the other girls,
I was a challenge you couldn’t get past,
I wasn’t easy,

You may have gotten bored,
Because you didn’t get what you wanted,
All I wanted was you,
And you threw me away like a piece of garbage,

I wish I could do the same,
I wish I was as heartless as you are,
But I don’t have a gaping hole in my chest,
I felt something for you that I’ve never felt before,
And I thought maybe you felt the same,

And maybe you did,
But you aren’t willing to change your ways,
And I’m not going to waste my time trying to change you,
It’s not in my nature,
It’s your nature to hurt girls,
Treat them like crap,

I knew this heartbreak was coming,
This feeling that I have been stabbed in the stomach,
And you are twisting the knife,
You laugh at my pain,
You said I shouldn’t have gotten attached,

I couldn’t help myself,
I loved you,
I have never loved a guy before,
And it sucks that you were my first love,
Because now I have to put barbwire around my heart now,
So that someone like you doesn’t hurt me again,

You already gave me a scar,
And it will go away in time,
Just like my feelings for you,
But it will always be painful,

I have the last word now,
And I hope that no one else falls for your tricks,
Because I can’t stand to see someone else in the pain,
And agony,
I am feeling right now.