Un-wake

I stare at my ceiling
Without the will to move
Not a thought in my head
I feel no hunger or thirst
And I cannot fall asleep

Hour upon hour passes by
But yet I’m still here
Not knowing what to do
Or even how to feel
What am I waiting for

I hear this noise in my head
When there is no sound
I don’t know what it is
But it is saying something
I just cant hear it

Perhaps it is not my time
Am I not ready
But for what I don’t know
There has to be something
That is troubling me

After all this time
I still don’t know
All I feel is empty
And that makes it hard to think
Decisions are not made easily

How did I end up this way
Why did I fall so far
Was it something that was said
Or an action that was done
Was it mine or another’s

I cannot remember
My mind is muddled
And thoughts are lost
Without a second thought
I’ve forgotten so much

The sun wakes and sleeps
While I do not
For this is a sleep
That I cannot wake from
All by myself