Towards My Own Friends

This isn't healthy
Jealousy
Hate
Pain
Anger
Towards my own friends
They did nothing
Except help me when I needed them
Yet I feel this way
I love them
But not like this
This isn't healthy
To feel like this
Towards my own friends
If they knew
God if they knew
They can't know
They can't know
How would they feel
If they found out
I felt like this
Towards my own friends?