Pain.

I can't fall asleep
but I can't be awake.
Every step that I take
I'm running away
from your mistakes.
Every glare that you give
every word that you speak
just keeps on doing cartwheels
as it brings me to my knees.
I fake the truth
and tell a lie
but I always get caught up
in a world that is preoccupied.
I'm a black skittle
that can't taste the rainbow
my taste buds go numb
when I suffocate on the air I blow.
I wanna let go
I wanna be free
"But the world out there is just too frightening!"
as you always say
but your tongue gets tied
and your hidden secrets
are my lullaby.
I cry myself to sleep every night
sometimes in a dark room
with no light.
That's cause you take everything
and never give back
and my heart begins to split down the middle; 'Crack.'
And you might as well just
be on some
cause your that crazy
because I'm the only thing you have to hold onto
but lately,
I've been switching sides
going against your rules
hiding from your face
because it's hurting mine.
And everyone says
"It's your mother, you've got to forgive her."
But she's hurt me so much
my brain just begins to scatter.
But I wanna live in the house
I was brought up in
so many memories I had
just with my family.
But you weren't there
it was my dad, brother and I
having fun
and the time of our lives.
And when you die
I will happily stomp on your grave
I will leave a few flower petals
but I don't mean what I say.
And it's hard to live in a world
with such an enemy
but now your daughter doesn't love you
and that's me.