I'll answer you, I couldn't cry.

I sit and look at the same old Screen,
Staring blankly at what I’m seeing.
Look around its all the same.
Living a life that’s scared to change.
So everything’s orderly, pretty and nice?
Why do I think its fucked, messed up and cant be right?
Like a makeshift heaven,
made to be fake.
Everyone thinks I’m going Insane,
So what if I’m the only sane one,
And your daily life, well then that’s wrong.

I sit and look up to the stars,
Reminding myself who the ones I love are.
Then I remember deep in my past,
Remember things which could never last.
People who once did mean so much,
Now we can hardly keep in touch
I cant pick up the phone nor look at them.
Once upon time we were best friends.
As close as love
Now there’s only hate that’s left,
So I guess all decision are for the best.

I sit and look at the day light sky
All I’m thinking is why would they lie?
Lovers lie to protect each other?
So from one liar you yet another,
People fall like dying flies,
Hidden behind their façade of lies.
So once my partner once did ask.
How long can this heaven truly last.
My reply was short and rather sweet
And with its presence they sure did weep.
Once I would have died for you.
But now I’m Dying because of you

Compare my life with your own,
Maybe you’ll see a shattered soul.
Look at my lovers all you’ll see.
They could never get what they needed from me.
They gave me love and in return,
I gave them heart break, dissertation and hell
They Ask me the question,
Why do I leave?
I’ll walk away and ignore their plead.
Ask me why I never said good bye
I’ll answer you, I couldn’t cry.