Dear Mom

I wish I knew why you walked away
Growing up with strangers all my life
Never checking in on me

Sometimes I wonder if you
Lay awake at night
Thinking about what you did
Do you ever think about how
Our lives would be if you never did it
Because I do

Never knowing anything
I felt like I was living a lie
Everyone around me looked down upon me
But you would never know
How much pain you put me through

Sometimes I wonder if you
Lay awake at night
Thinking about what you did
Do you ever think about how
Our lives would be if you never did it
Because I do

I’m not saying I hate you
‘Cause I fucking love you
Although I’ve never met you
I know the chose you made was the hardest
you’ve ever made

Sometimes I wonder if you
Lay awake at night
Thinking about what you did
Do you ever think about how
Our lives would be if you never did it
Because I do

Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you
I just want one day to call you my mother
One day to know my father
And a lifetime to spend loving you