Josh(R.I.P) Died october 20,2010 i franklin nh

Its true when they say you dont know how much someone means till you loose them. I never thought i could loose him. I didnt think he could go so young. Just pitcuing him dying alone. His body just layed there cold. His body so lifeless. The tears just keep coming, they make my head hurt, my eyes feel heavey. I dont know if i can go on. How can i move on without him being here. All i can think about is his touch, his face. No one will see his beauitiful blue eyes agian. I miss all jis jokes. I need to stop crying. My eyes are burning. I cant get over the fact that he's really gone. OMG he was so young. Only 14. I thought things could be diffrent. The world is just a prison. It just takes us, breaks us. This is all breaking me. Its growing inside of me. No one is safe.