One Side Ready To Leave; The Other Side Wishing to Stay (I Hate You Just As Much As I Hate Myself)

A soft lie,
Told between sheets.
You thought wrong.
I wish you knew.
 
A night barely remembered,
Time has blurred the line;
Between reality and a nightmare.
You walk around and can only see monsters.
Dazed and only half-awake,
You fall.
 
I left—that wasn’t a dream.
I won’t be there to catch you.
Sometimes I hope you’ll come back,
But I know I’d have to say no.

I'm dining with someone else tonight;
A bottle of pills and cheap drinks,
Let's hope I can disappear right.
I hope you know.

ONE LAST CHANCE
TO REVERSE THIS CURSE
ONE MORE TIME
TO NOT WANT TO DIE
ONE LAST CHANCE
TO CHANGE YOUR LIFE