It's Unusual

So far away,
Yet so close,
You bring me back;
Through every dose.
My heroine;
My meth;
Somehow you never cease
To put me to the test.
So gorgeous;
Amazing;
I'm sure you've seen
Me stop and stare, gazing.
You're different;
Unique;
Everytime I see you;
I feel my nerves freak.
So strange,
Confusing,
I've felt your words
Bruise me.
Fictional,
Unreal,
All these things
That I feel.
Blind,
And ignorant,
Try to understand,
But can't.
My secret,
I'm hiding;
It won't be something
You'll be finding.
So clever,
Yet clueless,
As always I'm the one
That loses.
Independent;
So strong.
I know I'm not worth it;
But please, prove me wrong.
Unfamiliar,
and odd;
I'm trying my best;
I swear to God.
Depressing;
And painful;
You're perfect,
No other girl this beautiful.
I'm sorry,
Forgive me;
Forget what I said;
I just want you happy.