Hate/Love

Carving words into my skin.
Temptation, I'm glad I gave in.
Now I'm digging the blade in deeply
And I'm watching the blood seeping
Quickly through and down my fingers.
I find it always seems to linger
And mixes in with the clear water.
Soon enough, I won't be a bother.
Down the bathroom drain it goes
Where it ends up, I'll never know.

Can you tell me...
Why should I rush to breathe?
Why can't I just sit here
And embrace the suffocation?

All locked up inside my heart
It's been weighing it down straight from the start,
But I can only do what I know
And what I've been doing since not long ago.
I'll carve my emotions into my skin
While hiding them all behind a grin;
Showing them in a way no one will see,
But they also won't see that they need to help me.

So I'll keep cutting 'till I finally reach the core.
I won't stop bleeding 'till I can't bleed no more.
And I won't stop screaming 'till I'm finally heard.
I'll keep playing with fire 'till I'm finally burned.