No matter how loud

No matter how loud
My music is playing
It doesn't ease the pain
Doesn't understand what I'm saying

No matter how much I wish
I could push you away
There's so many more reasons
I want you to stay

No matter how I try
I cant ease the pain
But you say just friends
And I cry again

And it's whatever
It doesn't matter anymore
So what if I'm dying
So what if I'm tore

All that matters
To me is you
So ill put on a smile
And not say the truth

Technically I don't lie
Because I am happy
But I'm dying inside
And you have the nerve to say you love me