But...

Alive but not living
Moving but standing still
Breathing but holding it all in
Surrounded but lonely
Smiling but crying
Home but lost
Silent but screaming
Searching but hiding
Loved but hated
Joyful but morose
Delighted but vexed
Saved but damned
Seeing all but blind
There but disappearing
Cared for but forgotten
Complete but empty
Loving but broken
Determined but wavering
Shining but tarnished
Free but in a gilded cage
Aware but dead
Head up but to stare down ashamed
Masked but transparent