Escape..

Yes i know i always say in on the brink. As you watch my destruction,do you honestly think i can make it? Im worried one day this will al just be to much. To many days and thoughts spent waking up in the same hell. with you as my only escape...where are you now? the pain is so sweet when your numb. All these days i wish on you to save me. yet i get let down and it doesnt phase me i hurt you when you hurt me. are we really meant to be? i just wanna leave sometimes.If i cant have my escape i dont want anything. I wanna let go...how long can i last? do you understand your keeping me here. to live my own hell when i think of what i deserve i realize its what i got. A hell with a escape. i wish someone would say its to late. Escape can you hear me! i want to leave....save me...or not...i wish goodbye was true.