Doubtful

I think you're confusing love
with burning desire
& passion
with a sparking fire

Do you ever wish you could just disappear?
Shatter your reflection
after you stare in the mirror?
Dont you just wanna wish it away?
Every sin & bad decision
because of the person it made?

I hate looking at my self
& realizing how much Ive changed
I wake up wishing i was someone else
because I am, who I hate

You can stand outside my window
screaming & telling me you love me
but It wont be enough
because you dont know who it is you even love

You may like who I am
but i'm not what i seem
You may think i'm beautiful
but Im just a tease

Cause happy smiles
barely last a little while
but screaming works
cause no one can see
how much you hurt

You can tell me you wont leave
but Im always doubting
You can't make me believe
Invisabley pouting

I cant trust a soul
with my internal cries
cause you'd use it against me
damaging lies.

Invisable flaws.
Just a lost cause