Decode.

I need
Someone to decode this message
Because my time is running out
The sand is slipping through my fingers
And the harder I grasp the quicker it seeps into everything else
Not even a ripple
To prove someone else held onto that
Before you pick it up and make it your own

If I simply write
I need someone to decode this message
Will you understand I am screaming
Silently
Without a sound
that I need help
All I want is to be beautiful
To be perfect
And even though the pounds keep disappearing
I'm beginning to think that even the scale is lying to me
Honey don't lie to me

Would you be able to understand
The clumsy words off of frozen lips
From hours in the bath tub with water the temperature of Antarctica's white glistening snow
All in the name of perfection
I want perfection
And I've finally found these xylophone ribs that have been hiding so long
But I don't know what to do with them
And I'm not sure If I am happy

Would you be able to understand my message
You who thinks you know me oh so well
Spills my thoughts and when I tell the truth
Heaven forbid I tell the truth
You disprove, because, that's just not me, is it?
Would you be able to understand
That the message I need decoded isn't a message at all
But a goodbye?