So Close

Where do I start?
With whom do I choose?
Can we really be apart?
Or will I just lose?

I believe in certain things.
Things I cannot even believe.
But in my mind it dings,
telling me what to believe.

I don't love the bonified man.
I am in love with the poor and crippled one.
The crippled one is truely a man,
for he knows what it means to lose.

He stole my heart.
And I left him for only god knows why,
because I do not know.
I may never know why.

I believe in true love.
Even if it means I have gone mad.
Give me a push and a shove,
but I will still be in love with that man.