Longing For the Undesirable

My heart ripped
Torn
Broken
Empty
By my own hand

Her words
Kill me
Kill those around her
The ones she supposed
To love
But she doesn’t know

Her place on that hill
Where the light shines through
Is her
glory

She feeds on me
When the light
Dims

Suffocating me
Killing my desires
But it felt so good

Even as she drained me
Emptied me
I wanted her

I wanted her

But when I found that
She had lied
I began to see
Her true face

Raw and bleeding
I tore myself away
Desperate to run

Desperate to run back

And now I weep
For what I lost
And dream of her

Suffocating me
Ending me

I saved myself
But I can’t help
But wonder
If
I should have stayed

And let her kill me.