Kept from You

I can't believe this has happened
Such a marvelous surprise
But I'm so concerned
Because what if you leave my side?

So I won't tell you
I won't say how I feel
I won't tell you the emotions
And all their little details.

I know what you see
When you gaze my way
I know that to matter what
You'll never say what I wish you'd say.

I'm not beautiful to you.
I'm not wonderful to you.
I'm not everything you want
And you're annoyed at all I do.

I try to be nice
I'm rewarded with spite.
My smile I give
Is never right.

You only see the funny girl
Who is kind of your friend.
You don't see the girl
Who'd give her all 'til the end.

You don't see the pools of blood
Created from my sorrowed tears.
They fall into despair
And will stay there for years.

This pain I cannot show you
Is hidden neatly away.
A childlike remark from you
Is the only thing making me stay.

I stay by your side for that remark.
I live for your will for what you tell me.
I burn in pleasure when you say
That I make you happy.

How can you do this,
Say I'm annoyingly awesome?
How can I take that
When you make me feel lonesome...

I'm the person who makes you smile
But at the same time you love to tease.
Glad you find it funny
It's the only thing relieving to me.

I'm relieved because you don't smile enough.
You hardly laugh that perfect laugh.
You never seem to get it though,
And you'll never, ever understand,

Because I won't tell you.