Apathy

You've heard the saying:
Love me or hate me, it's still an obsession.
But I can't help praying
Months can replace your hate
with the love I felt was fate.

This hole you carved into my heart
I couldn't possibly fill without your presence.
Was I ever hit with Cupid's dart
Or was it only because of you I've fallen under a trance?

My name still lingers on your lips
And for that I'm grateful.
The same voice that sent me on a thousand trips
Hook, line and sinker: you know the drill.

This dysfunction; it's chaos.
Our relationship's at a loss
for understanding.
We sure weren't planning
On our lives turning out this way.
No distinction between right and wrong, everything's grey.
I'm waiting for the day
You'll look my in the eyes
And apologize--for I know this wasn't all my fault.

We both played a part
in this disaster.
The thought forces these chambers
To beat a little faster.

Electricity washed over me as I realized I'd never truly left your mind.
This disaster of ours is one of a kind.
Apathy cannot be feigned;
Somewhere in your heart I've clearly stained.