Monotony of Drowning

Drowning in the sameness of everyone around,
Trying to find the Difference,
But I can't hear the sound
that I'm looking for to make it right,
Seems like Heartbreak is here tonight.

Maybe I'm no different,
I could be exactly the same
as the ones who make the Stories,
The ones who Play the game.

This changing game, they place the blame
on anyone who cares to Change,
Anyone who wants to break free of the Everlasting monotony,
But is anyone even willing now?
Can anyone say they Really know how?

Could I be who I am? Or will I just descend
into the sound of the Sameness all around?
Look at me, I'm not laughing now.
Can't you see I'm Bleeding from the growing pain
of the game, the game where no one's sane..

I try, I fight to stay afloat,
but all I See is this sinking boat
of Everything I tried to show,
All the things that made me want to be
more than just this Monotony.

It seems impossible to try so hard,
And still get lost in the same old Scars,
The ones you'd see if you actually looked at me.
Maybe I'm not all I made it out to be,
That sound, that difference was Never here at all
and all that I wanted was nothing but that fall.

Please.. pretend to care, go ahead and live with it there,
Don't worry I'll be fine with the weight of the World
'round my neck, taped to my spine.
It's strong, I can deal but Don't expect me to steal
the strength for you too because it's mine,
I need more or I'll drown for sure so Use me abuse me,
That's what I'm here for..

The sound of difference. It doesn't exist,
Being unique? It's all just a myth.